some days just click

After 3 days of unrelenting heat....the skies opened up and rained down cooling relief. The steam is rising off the street as if releasing the demons its held in for so long. I watch this drama unfold through a floor to ceiling double paned window, as if i am a spectator for some nature peep show, watching the clouds slowly reveal their innermost secrets.

and suddenly everything feels right...a serene calm comes over me as the heat slowly fades away. Each drop brings a soothing quiet that one can only feel and not hear. Everything makes sense....and everything just clicks again.

will...

I often find myself thinking about my own funeral. Sometimes it strikes me as morbid, but other times i find myself wondering if everyone thinks about it...maybe it's not just me. Will people show up..how many...will people i don't even realize like me show up...will people cry...will they miss me...will they be glad i'm gone...